Saturday night show - Momix

Managed to get tickets for the last show!

One eventful day

I suppose it's been a while since my brain has been challenged this much. I was on a UNIX based course today and I am even surprised I enjoye dit so much. God knows how I avoided using vi in my college years, yet there I was trying to rack my brain with the ways to edit and save a file in the damn editor. Anyway, I only retain things when it is absolutely necessary so for the next 2 days I will almost act as if I knew my way around that UNIX (s)hell.

After a morning that breezed through, an afternoon trying to understand a Solaris based sytem configuration on a full stomach and a drowsy head, I was back to my housing area...and on an impulse to buy something for a cute litle girl (Kenzah), entered a kids' clothes shop. After some difficulty, I found some cute clothes, but then after 5 more minutes I found everything cute and ended up with 7 outfits! Imagine if it were for my own kid! I was shocked. So I put everything back on the rails, and started from scratch. I seriously am not fit for this kind of things. It is much easier to buy clothes for myself. These are clothes she will grow out of in a couple of months too, so it seems like an expensive investment. Without being a parent, I now understand the tight budget they have/had to juggle with.

I got sick of trying to make a decision so ended up buying the 2 things I picked up first...I am a gut feeling person after all.

All that is elft is to be pretty for my passport photo tomorrow.

Thrills down my spine

The guitar version is what'#s in my mind but th epiano interpretation of this Albeniz piece is also quite awesome (Granada, Spanish suite).

What I ended up learning

How I love the 'IT Crowd'

It's amazing how the outtakes, bloopers or NG are making my day

Finally I am going to see 'Momix'

the song of workaholics...

The next piece.....

Not sure which one to choose...
1-Beethoven Sonata no8 'pathetique' 2nd movement


2-Liszt Liebestraum nocture 3


3 - Liszt Consolation no.3


4 - Tchaikovsky Op. 40 Nr. 2


Hum..considering I am missing about 20 notes..

Using this pensieve...

On wednesday morning I had a bagel to remember the taste of my college years.
I also got my student card that says 'undergraduate' on it...yiikes!
My resolve to do a good job at work is wavering.
Something I picked up in 'Seirei no Moribito' this week: "When one has money, life can be the same wherever she/he goes or lives. When you don't have money, you get the opportunity to adapt to different situations." I'll have to remeber that one in case I become too needy and greedy.
Am I uncomfortable with the thought of being happy?

Confidential

Have you ever wondered why you did not choose that exciting option? Or risked everything for a new experience? When you are afraid of what people may think, how important are those people to you? Why are you lacking confidence in yourself?

I admit we shared a bottle of sparkling wine between 3 people. But we also somehow felt safe enough to confront those questions and listen to each other. it is amazing how very good looking people are unsecure about their hair, looks, behaviour or what people may think. Maybe I am just naive to only care about very few friends and family memebers opinions. Some find me fragile, strong, balanced, cold hearted, but to be honest, we only do things for ourselves anyway: selfless acts are very rare (I am sure there is an episode of Friends where Phoebe makes that statement).

To be strong is to be able to protect our loved ones...thus for your own satisfaction and happiness.
To love or to give is to see that other person smile or enjoy the gift, which is again for oneself's benefit or relief.

So really, being committed to oneself seems the viable option.

S&M..which one are you?

I feel like a woman when...

-People around me start comparing their mobile phnoe features, discussing the operating systems, gadgets and accessories they have with it...totally a guy thing! When they lend it to me to see, I have a hard time understanding how to make a phone call with it...

-the cold autumn wind lifts up my skirt and my buttocks feels the breeze...

-I spot a nice pair of jeans on a nice pair of legs and I just want to see the front of that person walking in front of me..yiikes, there's a girl walking next to him...totally jealous!

-I get into the cosmetics aisles in a pharmacy or department store. Come to think of it, we women always think we can look or be better with tons of creams and medicines on...based on how the product container looks like.

-I am getting a head massage.

-I get people around me to do what I wanted them to do and I don't feel guilty about it because I was nice.

Autumn in London

That was Trafalgar Square at the end of the Beijing olympics...August went. September has rushed in with a torrent of rain and wind. The only bright fact is I have my ticket for an island much closer to the equator...let November come.

Before that, a lot to worry about:
-Japanese interview to enroll into classes
-Products exam for work
-Saving money for that November holiday (the Japan trip fund is also accepting donations!)
-Sending those outstanding posts...ahem...
-Stop biting nails..
-Loose 20 pounds (top of mission impossible list)
-Keep my friends...

The list is tiring me. I should just go back to sleep.

Falling in love...

The quiet moment that makes me look back and smile, is when I picture the moment I fall in love. It's usually a blurry and silent moment, because my memory erased all sounds and only remembers one beat of my heart, a single intake of air that stays frozen in time.

A crush has a scent of colonne or after-shave, and usually emotions come bursting into full fledged lust. My crushes are my source of light headedness and replaying of impossible ero-scenarios until I face reality and surprise myself day dreaming or being stupid.

That suspended moment in time when I fall for someone is the beginning of my worries. At that time I fully acknowledge my feelings for him: his pains become mine, his joys are my source of joy, etc...typical textbook cliche. Every casual time spent together becomes happiness.

I tend to forget about what I want during those happy times. I loose myself into making him happy that I sometimes erase myself. (Un?)Fortunately my tolerance is pretty low (and maybe selfishness is only dormant) so the smallest misconduct annoys me and my over-reaction is to pull back to re-assess what the relationship is giving me...Being a very idealistic person, I usually assume he reads minds. Being an unforgiving type, I have a hard time with all types of treachery.

Looking back could make me want to get back to those times, to fall in love again.

But first,

let me heal the wounds after falling...It's not all cotton buds, rose petals and feather we are falling into.

Some funny choreography in funny clothes

Gomen ne Juliet


Pinky


They all look 12..The moves look cool without the baggy lycra shining clothes...

After Olympics dramas

So now that I no longer can watch the Olympics at work (Tae kwon do, GRS, Synchronized swimming), I get to watch some weird Japanese series online...so I graduated from anime and dived into live actions....Sadly enough I've watched loads fo thema nd here are my 3 picks so far:

-Last Friends: about friendship and love
-Code Blue: Think ER with an helicopter (and yummy Yamapi)
-Puzzle: quite hilarious mystery series, especially the way they use English at the beginning.

Well some of them are still airing and season finales are approaching. In the meantime, I've totally lost track of what is airing in the West. I guess my head is kind of Asian oriented these days.

Thoughts of a tired mind

Discipline has never been my forte. I need that peer pressure to keep striving for my own goals:going to the gym at work, repeating out loud that I need to spend more time learning Japanese, repeating out loud that I have a test coming up next week...unfortunately I also tend to say out loud that I am hungry, tired and pissed off....

There are too many things that prevent me for keeping my discipline: minimal social life (though I ate out twice this week), various series online to watch (hmm to practice my Japanese reading and listening)...

Most importantly after that weekend in Savoie, I realize I tend to enjoy the company of various people, most often very different people with completely diverse interests and personalities. I haven't yet met that one person that has all those interesting characteristics, and I know I will never meet one. It's a tough realization that is starting to sink in that maybe I will have to settle for less than everything:)

It is also a given fact that at this point I am in no way inclined to sacrifice what I want to do for anyone else's sake..except maybe family members...

When deciding on where my career is going, it is even more vague than usual. There are a lot of things I do not want to do, and even more things I would like to try. There is just not enough time in this life to have it all, hence this other frustration griping my forehead.

Being greedy sure is painful! Is it easier to make decisions for someone you love? I imagine it is because you already have an idea of what is good or would make that someone happy...in my case, I dont know what will make me happy...

Wedding in Savoie

After 7 years....

Vocabulary

When in Singapore, mind the travellator...

Total Praise

For that time when you just want to sing from the top of your lungs and shiver....shiver..shiver