The year 2020 whizzed by, disturbing habits and beliefs. It brought me comfort in isolation, and time to explore new hobbies and thoughts processes. It brought health at the forefront of our mind and changed the priority of my relationship with others.
Some strange questions came up to mind.
-Why did I not consider working from home as viable? There is reduced stress from hearing colleagues with unnerving comments or discussions.
-Why is my voice or contribution not taken into account?
-What can I do truly on my own?
-What is love? I get attracted fairly easily but won't even lift a finger to fight for it.
-Why am I not ready to show my ugly self ?
-Does accepting other people's ugly self feel burdening and stressful?
-Why does it feel like I am treated as a push over?
Mental health is claimed to be a major victim of covid19. Let's see in 2021 if it can be turned around positively. I still enjoy myself and have so many things to try yet, even if strangely my mind has started to explore uncomfortable situations and whatifs.
I cannot know its limit until I put it to the test after all.
