When you loose your voice, there are a lot of things that are not possiblle:
-calling the clinic for an appointment (or even the emergency services. Do I just keep the phone on if I faint in my apartment and they come and save me or...?)
-speaking to the receptionist through a glass door
-any interaction on the phone with friends and family
-sleeping soundly, as I need my regular intake of lemon and honey to soothe the ear and throat infection.
I am testing my voice when I wake up. I sometimes go insane thinking maybe I have gone deaf as well as I can't hear my voice. Too bad I still hear the construction across the building!
Maybe it is time I learn sign language? I had to write everything on paper for the doctor to type in his computer. Remember, they do not touch the patient in this country. This doctor was very brave though,and used the stethoscope on my back to inspect my lungs. He also tried to inspect my ears with visibly dirty instrument (he picked up from his pencil box and had like grass on it), but I frowned so bad at it he chose a clean one from the medicine box....geez! Maybe next time I will bring my own tools for the doctor to use.
I am tor est for a week (the usual advice since it is legal to miss work without a doctor's note for that amount of time), and come back if not cured. It is very re-assuring and I am once again furious as clearly all my tax money is spent somewhere else than in sound medical/health services...
But what am I doing? Ranting here won't change a thing. But then again, I lost my voice so I can't be heard.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
One eventful day
I suppose it's been a while since my brain has been challenged this much. I was on a UNIX based course today and I am even surprised I enjoye dit so much. God knows how I avoided using vi in my college years, yet there I was trying to rack my brain with the ways to edit and save a file in the damn editor. Anyway, I only retain things when it is absolutely necessary so for the next 2 days I will almost act as if I knew my way around that UNIX (s)hell.
After a morning that breezed through, an afternoon trying to understand a Solaris based sytem configuration on a full stomach and a drowsy head, I was back to my housing area...and on an impulse to buy something for a cute litle girl (Kenzah), entered a kids' clothes shop. After some difficulty, I found some cute clothes, but then after 5 more minutes I found everything cute and ended up with 7 outfits! Imagine if it were for my own kid! I was shocked. So I put everything back on the rails, and started from scratch. I seriously am not fit for this kind of things. It is much easier to buy clothes for myself. These are clothes she will grow out of in a couple of months too, so it seems like an expensive investment. Without being a parent, I now understand the tight budget they have/had to juggle with.
I got sick of trying to make a decision so ended up buying the 2 things I picked up first...I am a gut feeling person after all.
All that is elft is to be pretty for my passport photo tomorrow.
After a morning that breezed through, an afternoon trying to understand a Solaris based sytem configuration on a full stomach and a drowsy head, I was back to my housing area...and on an impulse to buy something for a cute litle girl (Kenzah), entered a kids' clothes shop. After some difficulty, I found some cute clothes, but then after 5 more minutes I found everything cute and ended up with 7 outfits! Imagine if it were for my own kid! I was shocked. So I put everything back on the rails, and started from scratch. I seriously am not fit for this kind of things. It is much easier to buy clothes for myself. These are clothes she will grow out of in a couple of months too, so it seems like an expensive investment. Without being a parent, I now understand the tight budget they have/had to juggle with.
I got sick of trying to make a decision so ended up buying the 2 things I picked up first...I am a gut feeling person after all.
All that is elft is to be pretty for my passport photo tomorrow.
Thrills down my spine
The guitar version is what'#s in my mind but th epiano interpretation of this Albeniz piece is also quite awesome (Granada, Spanish suite).
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Monday, October 06, 2008
The next piece.....
Not sure which one to choose...
1-Beethoven Sonata no8 'pathetique' 2nd movement
2-Liszt Liebestraum nocture 3
3 - Liszt Consolation no.3
4 - Tchaikovsky Op. 40 Nr. 2
Hum..considering I am missing about 20 notes..
1-Beethoven Sonata no8 'pathetique' 2nd movement
2-Liszt Liebestraum nocture 3
3 - Liszt Consolation no.3
4 - Tchaikovsky Op. 40 Nr. 2
Hum..considering I am missing about 20 notes..
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Using this pensieve...
On wednesday morning I had a bagel to remember the taste of my college years.
I also got my student card that says 'undergraduate' on it...yiikes!
My resolve to do a good job at work is wavering.
Something I picked up in 'Seirei no Moribito' this week: "When one has money, life can be the same wherever she/he goes or lives. When you don't have money, you get the opportunity to adapt to different situations." I'll have to remeber that one in case I become too needy and greedy.
Am I uncomfortable with the thought of being happy?
I also got my student card that says 'undergraduate' on it...yiikes!
My resolve to do a good job at work is wavering.
Something I picked up in 'Seirei no Moribito' this week: "When one has money, life can be the same wherever she/he goes or lives. When you don't have money, you get the opportunity to adapt to different situations." I'll have to remeber that one in case I become too needy and greedy.
Am I uncomfortable with the thought of being happy?
Monday, September 08, 2008
Confidential
Have you ever wondered why you did not choose that exciting option? Or risked everything for a new experience? When you are afraid of what people may think, how important are those people to you? Why are you lacking confidence in yourself?
I admit we shared a bottle of sparkling wine between 3 people. But we also somehow felt safe enough to confront those questions and listen to each other. it is amazing how very good looking people are unsecure about their hair, looks, behaviour or what people may think. Maybe I am just naive to only care about very few friends and family memebers opinions. Some find me fragile, strong, balanced, cold hearted, but to be honest, we only do things for ourselves anyway: selfless acts are very rare (I am sure there is an episode of Friends where Phoebe makes that statement).
To be strong is to be able to protect our loved ones...thus for your own satisfaction and happiness.
To love or to give is to see that other person smile or enjoy the gift, which is again for oneself's benefit or relief.
So really, being committed to oneself seems the viable option.
I admit we shared a bottle of sparkling wine between 3 people. But we also somehow felt safe enough to confront those questions and listen to each other. it is amazing how very good looking people are unsecure about their hair, looks, behaviour or what people may think. Maybe I am just naive to only care about very few friends and family memebers opinions. Some find me fragile, strong, balanced, cold hearted, but to be honest, we only do things for ourselves anyway: selfless acts are very rare (I am sure there is an episode of Friends where Phoebe makes that statement).
To be strong is to be able to protect our loved ones...thus for your own satisfaction and happiness.
To love or to give is to see that other person smile or enjoy the gift, which is again for oneself's benefit or relief.
So really, being committed to oneself seems the viable option.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
I feel like a woman when...
-People around me start comparing their mobile phnoe features, discussing the operating systems, gadgets and accessories they have with it...totally a guy thing! When they lend it to me to see, I have a hard time understanding how to make a phone call with it...
-the cold autumn wind lifts up my skirt and my buttocks feels the breeze...
-I spot a nice pair of jeans on a nice pair of legs and I just want to see the front of that person walking in front of me..yiikes, there's a girl walking next to him...totally jealous!
-I get into the cosmetics aisles in a pharmacy or department store. Come to think of it, we women always think we can look or be better with tons of creams and medicines on...based on how the product container looks like.
-I am getting a head massage.
-I get people around me to do what I wanted them to do and I don't feel guilty about it because I was nice.
-the cold autumn wind lifts up my skirt and my buttocks feels the breeze...
-I spot a nice pair of jeans on a nice pair of legs and I just want to see the front of that person walking in front of me..yiikes, there's a girl walking next to him...totally jealous!
-I get into the cosmetics aisles in a pharmacy or department store. Come to think of it, we women always think we can look or be better with tons of creams and medicines on...based on how the product container looks like.
-I am getting a head massage.
-I get people around me to do what I wanted them to do and I don't feel guilty about it because I was nice.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Autumn in London
That was Trafalgar Square at the end of the Beijing olympics...August went. September has rushed in with a torrent of rain and wind. The only bright fact is I have my ticket for an island much closer to the equator...let November come.
Before that, a lot to worry about:
-Japanese interview to enroll into classes
-Products exam for work
-Saving money for that November holiday (the Japan trip fund is also accepting donations!)
-Sending those outstanding posts...ahem...
-Stop biting nails..
-Loose 20 pounds (top of mission impossible list)
-Keep my friends...
The list is tiring me. I should just go back to sleep.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Falling in love...
The quiet moment that makes me look back and smile, is when I picture the moment I fall in love. It's usually a blurry and silent moment, because my memory erased all sounds and only remembers one beat of my heart, a single intake of air that stays frozen in time.
A crush has a scent of colonne or after-shave, and usually emotions come bursting into full fledged lust. My crushes are my source of light headedness and replaying of impossible ero-scenarios until I face reality and surprise myself day dreaming or being stupid.
That suspended moment in time when I fall for someone is the beginning of my worries. At that time I fully acknowledge my feelings for him: his pains become mine, his joys are my source of joy, etc...typical textbook cliche. Every casual time spent together becomes happiness.
I tend to forget about what I want during those happy times. I loose myself into making him happy that I sometimes erase myself. (Un?)Fortunately my tolerance is pretty low (and maybe selfishness is only dormant) so the smallest misconduct annoys me and my over-reaction is to pull back to re-assess what the relationship is giving me...Being a very idealistic person, I usually assume he reads minds. Being an unforgiving type, I have a hard time with all types of treachery.
Looking back could make me want to get back to those times, to fall in love again.
But first,
let me heal the wounds after falling...It's not all cotton buds, rose petals and feather we are falling into.
A crush has a scent of colonne or after-shave, and usually emotions come bursting into full fledged lust. My crushes are my source of light headedness and replaying of impossible ero-scenarios until I face reality and surprise myself day dreaming or being stupid.
That suspended moment in time when I fall for someone is the beginning of my worries. At that time I fully acknowledge my feelings for him: his pains become mine, his joys are my source of joy, etc...typical textbook cliche. Every casual time spent together becomes happiness.
I tend to forget about what I want during those happy times. I loose myself into making him happy that I sometimes erase myself. (Un?)Fortunately my tolerance is pretty low (and maybe selfishness is only dormant) so the smallest misconduct annoys me and my over-reaction is to pull back to re-assess what the relationship is giving me...Being a very idealistic person, I usually assume he reads minds. Being an unforgiving type, I have a hard time with all types of treachery.
Looking back could make me want to get back to those times, to fall in love again.
But first,
let me heal the wounds after falling...It's not all cotton buds, rose petals and feather we are falling into.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Some funny choreography in funny clothes
Gomen ne Juliet
Pinky
They all look 12..The moves look cool without the baggy lycra shining clothes...
Pinky
They all look 12..The moves look cool without the baggy lycra shining clothes...
After Olympics dramas
So now that I no longer can watch the Olympics at work (Tae kwon do, GRS, Synchronized swimming), I get to watch some weird Japanese series online...so I graduated from anime and dived into live actions....Sadly enough I've watched loads fo thema nd here are my 3 picks so far:
-Last Friends: about friendship and love
-Code Blue: Think ER with an helicopter (and yummy Yamapi)
-Puzzle: quite hilarious mystery series, especially the way they use English at the beginning.
Well some of them are still airing and season finales are approaching. In the meantime, I've totally lost track of what is airing in the West. I guess my head is kind of Asian oriented these days.
-Last Friends: about friendship and love
-Code Blue: Think ER with an helicopter (and yummy Yamapi)
-Puzzle: quite hilarious mystery series, especially the way they use English at the beginning.
Well some of them are still airing and season finales are approaching. In the meantime, I've totally lost track of what is airing in the West. I guess my head is kind of Asian oriented these days.
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